The Insanity that is, Me

When someone you trust changes in an instant, how is it possible to believe what they have said to you up until that moment.  it is terribly heartbreaking that is certain.  When you saw so much in them, saw so much for the future. When you would move 2,000 or miles away with your child to be with them. 

Distance means nothing when the bond is strong, especially if it survived years prior no matter what the obstacle was.  Even if communication was ceased for a period of time for unfair reasons.  In the end, nothing else mattered because the bond survived.

But all this seems to haven been ignored or forgotten.  And expressing your feelings just makes it worse even tho bottling them up is just as bad.  

Wish I knew why…

Wish things would go back to how they were, or better

just don’t know.

I haven’t been gone long but it feels like a lifetime… 

The lack of brain cells in people these days is absurd. With guys and their game playing of females, NOT thinking or considering their feelings to chicks and their obliviousness to the truth of what their guys have really been doing then basically going on like it never happened. It makes me laugh tremendously hard.  I understand we all have our problems with ourselves but when it comes to things like that?  Its appalling, get over yourselves thinking things will work because in the end they won’t c:

Then you have the type of guy who tries to control your every move, who you talk to, and who you hangout with.  Always asking, “who texted/called you? was it a guy? was it your ex?”  Then turn around and be vindictive and threaten to do something against you depending on what you want to do that they don’t want you to do. Then when you finally try to end things they go and cry and start apologizing and  you not to go.  At that point your mind just is dumbstruck saying, “FUCK” to itself. 

My rant is finished for now c:

I think I found something else that’s semi constructive on here